Wednesday, December 10, 2008



Look at this face....my sweet Garrett!  Having him is like having "in house" therapy.  He is happy, energetic, joyful, and loving. (I could go on for hours about all he says and does, but I will spare you)  I love this boy....so much that it breaks my heart (too).  My mom always says that "motherhood is not for sissys."  This is maybe not the most profound thing she has taught me , but it sure might be the most truthful.  Loving so deeply makes me vulnerable, raw, exposed.  Being a mom is hard and I have the distinct impression that it will get much harder for me.  But oh, the joy is worth it!  Now I have (get) to go play "where Garrett go?" for the 30th time...

8 comments:

Emily Harriman said...

As usual, I am at a loss for words. I am humbled, heartbroken, and encouraged. It is such a privilege to know you and walk with you. Thank you for sharing your heart, your thoughts, your pain, your joy...

Love,
Emily

Emily Harriman said...

Also, William LOVES looking at the pictures on here. While I am typing he says, "I want to go back to the pictures of Garrett and Lilah! I want to see them!"

Alison said...

Such a moving post and so true!

daisyeyes said...

You are an amazing mom and the Lord has truly prepared you in so many ways for the journey ahead. What a blessing you have been to so many and what lucky children and husband you have to have you.

and that hair...what a lucky boy so have such amazing hair!

Jessica said...

Garrett is so precious, I can tell by the photos that he is a lot of fun! :)

notes from em said...

love your mom.
that is a perfect quote.
honored to know you, see your faith, and to see the way you love your family.
love you
em

The Leonards said...

This is a beautiful post. You make me cry with your love and honesty...putting into words the incredible feelings that being a mama produces. Your children are so precious. It's a blessing to be walking through this journey of motherhood with you.

The new camera is taking some GREAT pics!

Myra said...

Gina and Paul,

I cry, partly because that the stress you are experiencing is so hard and sad, but mostly because that you touch the deepest places in my heart as I see your beautiful grace and strength rise again and again ... God's grace and God's strength. I watched you both through labor and delivery and saw the same strength and grace. Your touch of influence is powerful. Your willingness to be open and share gives God beautiful opportunity to use you and to bring ever more blessings to your stressful circumstances. I cry with you and hope with you and pray with you.

Love Always,
Myra Alston, RN (Labor and Delivery)